My name is Jessica. Twenty-three years old and working every day to just be myself.
I’m not perfect. I’m not normal. I’m not average.
Why would I want to be?
When I first started this blog it was for the same reason as most of the things I do in my life: simply because I wanted to. After nearly a year of blogging just for the sake of blogging I began stumbling upon my purpose here. Again much like the rest of my life, I keep moving forward until I figure out where I’m actually going.
There’s nothing wrong with wandering through life. It’s my belief that if you wander long enough, you will find where you need to be. I’m living proof of that. From the time I was a little girl I knew where I wanted to be. I wanted to train horses in Texas! I kept a hold of that dream as I grew up but the older I got the harder it was for me to keep the dream alive.
So many people around me where certain that I was on the wrong path and they had no problem letting me know. My dreams were too big, too unrealistic, dreams that I would fail to achieve if I even attempted. Worse than that… I eventually believed them. Once I believed them I quickly became a person I did not like, living a life that made me miserable. Don’t get me wrong, I still had the same dreams! Only now I was sitting on the side of the road watching them pull further and further away from me like a set of taillights heading south.
Why did I let others have such an influence over my life?
Why is it so easy for the people around us to force their opinions on us?
Because they amplify our own insecurities.
That’s hard to admit, at least for me it is, and it’s even harder to over come. The good news is: hard does not equal impossible.
It took time and it took serious effort but I got back on track! I picked myself up, got my head straight and started chasing down my dreams again. I worked twice as hard, gave up the people that were bad for me, saved my money, ignored my doubts and now?
Well now I live in Texas, on a ranch, where I work for one of the top reining horse trainers in the industry. On top of that I’m in the process of starting my own training business on the side! My dreams are becoming a reality right in front of me!
If I can survive those dark days any of us can. Especially if we do it together.
That, my friends, is why I started this blog almost a year ago. I want to help people like me; the ones too strong to admit we’re scared, too proud to admit that we need help and too independent to admit we don’t know where we are going.
So, don’t worry.
We may be wandering, but we are not lost.